Losing weight comes with a dark side.its the evil twin of acceptance.
its the obsession of not feeling pretty.
Its the anxiety of everyone staring at your stomach and flabby arms while you walk out in the cruel cruel world..EVERYONE SEES YOUR FAT! THEY ARE ALL STARING AT IT!
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Its changing your outfit 5 times before you head out and STILL feel ugly as you walk out the door.Its the bad thoughts you think when you see a skinny little bitch passing you by eating a damn ice cream cone, enjoying it!
Im so obsessed with my weight.I hate it.I hate that i still feel like a fatty pants.im constantly looking in the mirror, sucking it in, telling myself....this is where you gotta be! SQUEEZE....right there!!!!! :)
Ive been hitting the gym hard.I even go twice a day depend on how my body feels.Its at an aching stage right now, cause my poor muscles are NOT used to working this hard.Ive been doing lots of arms, squats, lounges, abs, and my favorite...CARDIO!
I dont even care if i look like this in the end.
OK...OK....thats alittle bit too much!i bet she can crack a walnut between her breast..geez!
I want to be toned.I want nice curves and a flat tummy...I even have a little 4 pack going on underneath the flab :)
i do want nice muscles on my arms.THAT I DO WANT!
HA! DREAM BIG HUH! no, thats too much for me lol.
thats what i want! im so sick of flabby arms that haunted my pictures and self pity for years.I want muscles, i want to be able to say....look what i have accomplished....psshht...Michelle Obama aint got shit on me!
All i gotta do is keep truckn, i gotta stay focused and tell that inner fat girl, she is not welcomed her anymore.She can NOT give up!This is for her, no one else.
I feel ya. I've started referring to Rachel of yesteryear, 'Fat Rachel'.
ReplyDelete"No, I can't eat this. Fat Rachel WOULD eat it. I won't..."
While on the treadmill, "Fat Rachel would give up right now... I can't."
I don't want to be toned. I want Christina Aguilera's body NOW -- curvy. I don't even care about muscles. I've never been even considered 'normal curvy' and that's what I want.
We got this! <3
I am with you I still der myself as a fat girl...but your right keep on trucking! Michelle Obama arms Carrie Underwood legs!
ReplyDeleteI meant I still find myself...ugggh my swype feature hates me!
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